My heart beats for you,
But it's slowly dying.
I'll have to see it through,
But I can't stop crying. ~~SIGH~~Ponders~~
So I was looking through my diary on Microsoft Word:P And I found this letter thingy I wrote right after the break up....
A little message from me to you. Hope you fucking enjoy..
"I remember those days when you used to look at me like I was some kind of miracle, I miss that, but then you dropped me like I meant nothing at all... When I heard those five specific words, my heart was torn, abandoned, & dropped. Suddenly, my world turned to darkness & night. I guess to some extent, I got used to being alone, the small sounds of you have been replaced by silence & by my thoughts echoing through my head, with no one to share them with. I stopped expecting phone calls every night & texts every morning. All in all, it's not terrible, but it truly is painful. It sucks & hurts so much that you've moved on so quickly, & at the same time, I'm sitting here all alone, closing up my eyes, trying not to cry, listening to sad music & falling into memories of you & things we used to do. I miss everything we ever had; you once made me so happy... What we used to have were special & unforgettable, but now I have to accept the fact that you'll never come back. Now is the time to try and start forgetting about you, but that's hard when everything reminds me of you... But at the same time, I actually want to be reminded of you because you still mean so much to me, but sadly, you don't care about any of this. Thanks for leaving me heartbroken.. Have a nice life. Goodbye."
--October 9, 2009 - January 11, 2010 <|3
^^ I wonder if you'll ever read any of that ^^
"I remember those days when you used to look at me like I was some kind of miracle, I miss that, but then you dropped me like I meant nothing at all... When I heard those five specific words, my heart was torn, abandoned, & dropped. Suddenly, my world turned to darkness & night. I guess to some extent, I got used to being alone, the small sounds of you have been replaced by silence & by my thoughts echoing through my head, with no one to share them with. I stopped expecting phone calls every night & texts every morning. All in all, it's not terrible, but it truly is painful. It sucks & hurts so much that you've moved on so quickly, & at the same time, I'm sitting here all alone, closing up my eyes, trying not to cry, listening to sad music & falling into memories of you & things we used to do. I miss everything we ever had; you once made me so happy... What we used to have were special & unforgettable, but now I have to accept the fact that you'll never come back. Now is the time to try and start forgetting about you, but that's hard when everything reminds me of you... But at the same time, I actually want to be reminded of you because you still mean so much to me, but sadly, you don't care about any of this. Thanks for leaving me heartbroken.. Have a nice life. Goodbye."
--October 9, 2009 - January 11, 2010 <|3
^^ I wonder if you'll ever read any of that ^^
It's weird though. I was reading it, and I start crying?? :| What the hell. Bad times.
Blah I didn't really have anything to say.... I was just in a sad-ish mood.
Welp, tomorrow's Zach's birthday. I didn't get him anything.... I'm a bad girlfriend:[ Fuckkk.
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